Tuesday, December 11, 2007
All these days, I have been hiding my feelings. Deep down, I'm feeling terrible. I have never felt this way since long ago.
Lonely.
During the night, I turn to my side and see no one beside me. All I see is the darkness! I tell myself I have to stand strong with my decisions and never look back. Then, I wake up the next day feeling that I've contridicted myself again and again.
Say it isn't so.
I always expect a lot! Then, I will get a lot of disapointments. I know this myself, but I just couldn't help it! Feeling is uncontrollable.
Everyday, I told myself that, "I must make today a wonderful day." Once it's bed time, many things flashes through my mind. And it's mostly all the good memories that I'm missing. I never thought it will hurt so much. I never thought I will feel this way again.
This is why I always say, "Expect the unexpected!"
9:14 AM